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Last post on her @IG, 13 weeks ago, with a picture in her peek condition:
I don’t even know where to begin to try and explain the time between 11/2/23 and 11/2/24.
The red flags were there way before the Olympia but me being me, I had the weight of others’ expectations ON TOP of my own expectations of myself.
I pushed my body way past where it wanted to go physically, which wreaked havoc on my mental state making those physical issues even worse.
Add in one year of battling my health. One year of pain. One year of basically living in a bathroom. One year of chronic indigestion and inflammation. One year of living on edge constantly. One year of fearing food. One year of nothing but frustration, leading to hopelessness.
Feeling like I’ve lost my body….my mind….and myself. Especially when most only think of you as a bodybuilder or that the only reason they’re in your life is because of bodybuilding, you start to think that’s all you’re good for, and when that goes, what ARE you good for?
When the one thing you could rely on feels so damn foreign.
When the one thing you were so sure of for years becomes something you can no longer enjoy.
When you can’t even look yourself in the mirror because you don’t recognize who you’ve become.
I just want to get to a point where I can enjoy it again. Not to look good, but simply feel good. I dream of a time when I don’t feel like my body is fighting every single thing…
I think a lot of bodybuilders share these feelings.
When the one thing you were so sure of for years becomes something you can no longer enjoy.
This is a lot like drug or alcohol addiction, where you're chasing a high that you can never really feel again.
I just want to get to a point where I can enjoy it again. Not to look good, but simply feel good. I dream of a time when I don’t feel like my body is fighting every single thing…
I think at some point reflection is necessary, "What am I doing this for?" It sounds like she needs a break at the very least, but she might be better off retiring altogether for the sake of her overall health and well-being.
I’m kinda not surprised. I was initially a fan, but her posts became more and more obsessive, not to mention the more and more obvious chemical effects, so I stopped following her. I truly hope she can get herself right.
We all love the GWM gals and bigger is better but Emily has been honest about her journey to get to and prep for Olympia. In her case, it greatly impacted her in a negative way. My hope is that she can overcome these difficulties and can totally recover. She may or not stay in FBB which means she may or not compete anymore. I wish her all the best.
We all love the GWM gals and bigger is better but Emily has been honest about her journey to get to and prep for Olympia. In her case, it greatly impacted her in a negative way. My hope is that she can overcome these difficulties and can totally recover. She may or not stay in FBB which means she may or not compete anymore. I wish her all the best.
Perfect comment. I'm think the same.
She works super hard and pushes her body to the limit. it is a brutal life style few people can handle so it's expected that she is going to burn out. and most people would snap over much less work. let's just hope she can find a balance and remain relatively muscular without making her life hell.
WTF is wrong with you, man? Fuck.
You said nothing wrong whatsoever, dude is clearly unhinged
I agree!! Someone has some problems of his own, it would seem.
She works super hard and pushes her body to the limit. it is a brutal life style few people can handle so it's expected that she is going to burn out. and most people would snap over much less work. let's just hope she can find a balance and remain relatively muscular without making her life hell.
What did I say? is everything weird now
You said nothing wrong whatsoever, dude is clearly unhinged
Wow.
Fixed it for you.
Wow.
Fixed it for you.
This^
Basically the insinuation is, without her looking a certain way(for your pleasure), she has no value...proving her point as she foretold in her alleged post text - that without her being a bodybuilder and maintaining a look she would be considered nothing. You basically proved her point, while being facetious about your well meaning intention.
It is quite hard to not upset people here
I think you're using the word "upset" to mean others pointing out your low level of people skills. That's seems to be what is difficult for you. We're here to give honest feedback though, if you are willing to take it.
oqser4rap4, its strange. You ask the comunity a question and then you answer it yourself... Why not being open right from the start?!
Wait. At what point was my answer definitive? I said "it seems like it could be this", that "her post indicates it might be that". Nothing more, nothing less.
I would say having been around a couple female body builders, they all do at least one other drug. Amazingly to me it's usually alcohol. Or it's G. So they aren't perfect - so far so good. But then the contest prep they become another person. I guess when the body suffers, the mind cries out. So I'm saying yes she's depressed, but it's normal and likely seasonal. Final Answer.
I imagine looking like an anatomy chart almost all year round would take its toll.
At least she’s deciding to pull back now and not push herself to the unfortunate point of death like some of the women that have sadly left us.
I think you're using the word "upset" to mean others pointing out your low level of people skills. That's seems to be what is difficult for you. We're here to give honest feedback though, if you are willing to take it.
To be fair to him, if I remember correctly he mentioned that he is autistic. Being around quite a few autistic people in the gaming community (and myself being mildly neurodivergent) I can understand the struggle to pick up social cues and with having proper social skills.
That being said, yotv, instead of doubling back by saying that it's hard to not upset people here, maybe try actually listening to why some of your comments have less than positive responses. We're not sensitive or "trying to be normal", like you said in another post, but rather we have experience and we don't want to see another person struggling.
Anyway, I hope Emily is doing ok and is getting back to a good place with her physical and mental health.
I mean... she is one of the greatest hardcore girls in recent years. Her posts on social media indicate health problems and depression, I think.